Filling Holes, Finding yourself

Have you ever had a loss in your life?..sure you have, we all have at some point. moving away from a friend, losing a loved one, being dumped, someone ate your ice cream...whatever it is you have had a loss.

Have you ever done this, or I am I the only crazy one? Have you ever tried to fill the hole that, that loss leaves? Fill it with drinking, partying, doing more things, fill it with other people, however you try to do it..instead of feeling the pain or letting the hole bleed, and scab and heal you fill it with gauze. The sucky part of this is eventually the gauze comes out and about 90% of the time the hole is reopened and infected.

Why the heck do we do this to ourselves..why do I do this to myself, the infected wound takes longer to heal then the wound that was there in the first place. If I would just take the time to clean it to give it time to heal in the first place the wound will heal, it may ooze a bit first but eventually it will heal..but instead of just letting it heal I fill it with gauze and usually tape the gauze on..and then when it happens and the tape comes off, the gauze falls out and things are so much worse then they could have been, would have been instead of having this little scar, now I have this rash from the tape, and oozing puss and I feel like life is falling apart, and everything seems to irritate the infected wound, and after an infected wound heals the scar is usually a little bigger then what it would have been in the first place..because now it is not laced with the memories it is often laced with the memories and some regret....WHY THE HECK DO WE DO THIS TO OURSELVES.