Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Dancing in the Rain

Sometimes life sucks! Sometimes life feels more then what you can take! Sometimes everything seems so confusing! Sometimes life seems so huge! Sometimes Life seems so happy! Sometimes the joy is overwhelming! Sometimes life feels perfect!
Sometimes life feels like a huge storm, and then there are times when you feel like you can see the end of the storm and then it rains a little bit more, or it even pours. Sometimes all it takes is a little bit more rain to knock you down to the ground and make you feel like you just can't take it any more, it feels like you can not take one more ounce of hurt, or ounce of anything for that matter...and that is when you have to, even if you feel like you are dying inside, stand up and learn how to dance in the rain.
Dancing in the rain can feel so refreshing, feel so lovely, it is when you are dancing that you will see that glimpse of hope, find that glimpse of joy.
So, get up and dance..try it..it is not easy, I never said it would be, I know..it is harder then it sounds, trust me I know. But get up and dance, dance through the storm.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Opinions

I have heard it said that when you submit to someone else's opinions you lose a part of yourself.

How true is this. We so often submit to someone else's opinions of who we are and how we should live, and when we do I believe that we lose a part of ourselves.

Now this being said I am sure this isn't always a bad thing, I think people are put into our lives to help us change, to mold us to help us grow to be better people, or achieve who we really are to be, to keep us on track in life, so submitting to some opinions can be good.

But those aren't the opinions that I am talking about. I am talking about the ones like..what you dont have five kids yet you are wasting your life? what you better get married now your clock is ticking? or the take that hat off, you dont wear hats in church? or what are you doing calling yourself a christian and sitting in a bar? or that isnt the proper way to talk to someone, or proper way to be, or proper way to do your hair..you get the point.
When you fold the things that make you, you, when you give in and say who I am isn't enough, I need to be more to impress this person or that person. when you take away parts of you for fear of offending the people around you, you are submitting to them, you are giving a piece of who you are to a garbage can so you can make someone else happy..is that really what you want.
You want to take your hand and put it in the garbage can to impress the people around you? you want to take your thoughts and throw them out because they dont fit the right box or what that person is telling you is the right box. Please dont throw yourself out. Dont sell yourself short, dont lose yourself to make people happy...cause I like yourself. I actually more then like it I love it..you being you makes life interesting.

dont submit to others opinions, dont lose yourself, dont lose your passion.

Who are you

you have a magnificint story, you have a lovely life wheather you know it or not. The question is though, are you living your life to make a difference?

Did you know that you are so important that you make a difference everyday?? There is always someone watching you, looking at you, looking to you. You are always influencing someone whether you know it or not it is true.....so look at yourself...who are you? are you someone that you want your little sister/brother to date? are you someone you want your kid to grow up to be? are you someone you would want to be friends with?
Are you living your life to make a change? are you living your life to be a good influence on those around you?

Are you making every moment count? because life is short and there are a lot of people watching you, learning from you......may I make a suggestion? You need to step up your game, you need to beable to look at yourself and say I like this person and I am living a good life a life that will make a difference.

God I'm Lonely

Have you ever sat in a room with a hundred people and felt all alone? Have you ever sat in a room with twenty people and felt so very alone? Have you ever sat in a room with 5 people and felt like you were so far away from everyone, so very alone? Have you ever sat in a room by yourself and wondered if there is anyone else in the world who ever feels as lonely as you do? If anyone else has ever been through what you have been?

That kind of loneliness is not hard to come by, and not easily answered...because the truth is no one has ever gone through what you have gone through, every moment of joy, every moment of pain, every smile, every tear they are all different. Not one life is the same, not one pain is the same, not one tear is the same, not one smile is the same, not one feeling of joy is the same.
Oh yes people can say that has happened to me, or has happened to someone I know, but the truth is they went through something similar but it truly has never happened to them or to someone they know...scary eh? Every situation is different, they don't have the same family as you, they don't have the same friends, they don't think the exact same way as you therefore what they are have gone through or are going through is not the same, they haven't been through it, they can sympathize, or celebrate with you but can never fully understand.....you are alone in a room of a hundred people, you are alone in a room of twenty people, you are alone in a room of five people and when you sit alone and think about it, no one has ever felt exactly the same as you, no one has ever been down the exact, exact path as you..maybe a very similar one but not the same..it is lonely...or is it??

Are you alone? Think about it..because really you aren't, there is this magnificent God who walks along side of you smiling at the things that make you smile, and shedding tears for you before the tears even come close to burning in your eyes...and on top of that in case that isn't enough or you can't see that He has placed some wonderful friends/people around you, who may never exactly know how you are feeling but they care deeply...Just know that...know that you are never ever ever alone.
And know that in this feeling of being so far away, so alone, so bored, so scared of sharing your loneliness or the things that are making you feel alone, you aren't really alone...and this I have to remind myself of constantly.