God I'm Lonely

Have you ever sat in a room with a hundred people and felt all alone? Have you ever sat in a room with twenty people and felt so very alone? Have you ever sat in a room with 5 people and felt like you were so far away from everyone, so very alone? Have you ever sat in a room by yourself and wondered if there is anyone else in the world who ever feels as lonely as you do? If anyone else has ever been through what you have been?

That kind of loneliness is not hard to come by, and not easily answered...because the truth is no one has ever gone through what you have gone through, every moment of joy, every moment of pain, every smile, every tear they are all different. Not one life is the same, not one pain is the same, not one tear is the same, not one smile is the same, not one feeling of joy is the same.
Oh yes people can say that has happened to me, or has happened to someone I know, but the truth is they went through something similar but it truly has never happened to them or to someone they know...scary eh? Every situation is different, they don't have the same family as you, they don't have the same friends, they don't think the exact same way as you therefore what they are have gone through or are going through is not the same, they haven't been through it, they can sympathize, or celebrate with you but can never fully understand.....you are alone in a room of a hundred people, you are alone in a room of twenty people, you are alone in a room of five people and when you sit alone and think about it, no one has ever felt exactly the same as you, no one has ever been down the exact, exact path as you..maybe a very similar one but not the same..it is lonely...or is it??

Are you alone? Think about it..because really you aren't, there is this magnificent God who walks along side of you smiling at the things that make you smile, and shedding tears for you before the tears even come close to burning in your eyes...and on top of that in case that isn't enough or you can't see that He has placed some wonderful friends/people around you, who may never exactly know how you are feeling but they care deeply...Just know that...know that you are never ever ever alone.
And know that in this feeling of being so far away, so alone, so bored, so scared of sharing your loneliness or the things that are making you feel alone, you aren't really alone...and this I have to remind myself of constantly.